Could you tell me a time you felt lost?

I will never forget that year that I struggled so much in silence. There was a time where I was doing just fine and all of the sudden everything changed for me so quickly. A big wave of sadness would always come to me at all times, I hated it. People started questioning me because of the way I started acting. I didn’t even know how to answer when they asked what was wrong with me, all I knew was that I wasn’t okay. Most of the time I would isolate myself and this caused me to lose many people in my life. Everyone would come and tell me to be more positive and questioning why I was so upset all the time if I had everything I ever needed. It’s rare for me to open up, and when I did, I felt like they didn’t care or understood me at all. Everyone kept saying how I didn’t want to spend time when them and that I didn’t enjoy being with them, in reality I had my own things going on. No one should ever apologize because of how they feel.

I wanted to get better and yet had no clue how to get out of that hole when I felt alone and misunderstood. I could’ve been in the most biggest friend group, but I felt so small and lonely. At this time all I really wanted was someone to notice me and help me because I didn’t know how to help myself. All these feelings were new to me , the worst I ever felt. I tried distracting myself so I would get out of that hole for some time , but once I would go back into the room, it would come back. I got to a point where I just didn’t care about anything. There was this teacher that saw through me and helped me so much, I never told her in person how thankful I was. Years later I contacted her and thanked her because she truly saved me. She gave me a hug when I most needed it, that’s all it took, for someone to listen to me. I started looking at people’s stories that I could relate to and seeing how they worked on themselves.

They would tell their story and I would listen. I started looking for things that I enjoyed and made me happy. I started looking for things that made me feel healthier and better. When I started doing things for myself, I became more positive and I started wanting to spread more positivity because I never wanted anyone to feel like how I felt, so alone. Now I’m really proud of myself because I got myself out of that darkness. I am always trying to improve myself and do new things. Every time that I start feeling down, I remind myself that I got myself out of that hole and that I can overcome anything because I am strong. I want everyone to know that someone cares about you even when you don’t see it. Everything is okay even if we don’t see it. You are not alone , surround yourself with people that makes you feel loved and not alone. Surround yourself with people that push you to do better and encourages you to give it your all.

Working on myself and trying to get out of my comfort zone is the best choice I’ve ever made. It’s okay to panic and it’s okay to feel not okay but always make sure to get up every time. Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t feel a type of way just because of your age. Everyone deserves to be heard, everyone is strong and I know you can overcome anything. I am so proud of you today!